I tried so many things in life

I tried many times to take a cue
I tried but I witnessed a fall
Many times that I held my head
But I could not stand so tall
Everything looks shattered
Everything looks broken apart
Nothing seems so good to me
Nothing seems like a pretty heart
There are no feelings left
I am in a state of deft
Waiting for this moment to get through
Where I will see things so new
Waiting for that life too!