There is a feeling of pain inside

There is a feeling of being so vulnerable
To all the pain that bears in my heart
I do not know where is my way
I never made a perfect start
Things have changed for me
There is nothing left to see
I think there was never a moment
When I got to enjoy my glee
I have strived hard through the pain
I have suffered all in the vain
Happiness has a role to play in life
Its just sadness which I have seen
Struggling for a moment to smile
All the while in time!