I am in total loss of words

I am in loss of words right now
I don't know should I cry in pain
I had some hopes from our relation
But now everything is in vain
If you never loved me,
You should have told me before
If you never loved me
You should have left me from the start
Why and when I made you a part
If my life and my world
Nothing seems same anymore
Nothing is life before
I am heartbroken to the core
And it will be this way forever!